Yes tomorrow is Friday..

It has been a long long week for me.. Busy researching and planning for my projects, gonna plan a CNY shopping spree for my listeners. Walked around Victoria Street Wholesales Centre, Pasir Panjang Wholesales Centre, Bugis area and Defu Lane to look for merchants selling CNY stuffs. Used up so many packets of tissue to wipe my sweat. Gonna sit down with manager tmr, so show him wad I've found out, and submit a proposal to him. Really hope that my walking and sweating doesn't go into waste.

Went to Sitex Fair today, with Chong and Peng. Wanted to get a new camera, a semi pro type. Went to look around, had many deep thoughts, FINALLY!! I end up not buying a new camera. Its more than a want than need. So I got what I need, a external hard disk. Got a 120Gb hard disk for $107. I was so mountain tortise today. Came across a new term at the fair, didn't know that other than KB, MB and GB, now there's even TB. haha.. I think TB is about 100 or 1000GB?

Come to realize, I've got most of the things in my wish list, except the hard disk. Got my ps2 which I sold away. Got my k800i, which I lost and now using the k810i. Got my new liverpool jersey. Wow! I've gotten all that I've listed down in my wish list. I really didn't expect to own all of them. Think better not have a new wish list. It'll just end up with a bigger hole in my pocket.

After Sitex Fair, we went over to John Little Mega Expo Sales. WAH!!!! Got so many things I wanna buy but not enough time plus I don't wanna spend so much. In the end, I bought a belt and some ankle socks. All my socks got big holes in them, even a small rat and go through. Haha..

Wooo HOO!! Weekends are coming.. Can't wait for Saturday soccer, FOM and CHURCH!!! A lot of friends say I got no life, Monday to Friday work, Saturday and Sunday go church. But I really enjoy going to church and have fellowship with church mates. In fact, its where I really find true life, not their life by clubbing and being merry.

3rd time in a row, have I failed to watch my liverpool Champions League match. I managed to stay up till 2am last night. But in the end, I still fall asleep. Manage to wake up at 3 though, but was just too tired.. It was great that they won Porto 4 - 1, if not it means that I have missed the last Champions League game for liverpool. No matter what, I must stay up to watch the match against Marseille in a fortnight's time. It could jolly well be their last Champions League game if they do not win. COME ON REDS!!

R 'n' B - Repent and Believe

Today's bible study really smacked me right at the head. It made me worry, almost tremble to realize the seriousness of sin. The content might be disturbing, but its just what I feel. My apologies if you are offended.

Today's study is the final 3rd Chapter of the study guide, talking about Jesus being betrayed by Judas and his last hour. This part of the bible, is rather similar to the "Chronicles of Narnia". The younger brother Edmund, is like Judas. The white witch maybe Pharisees and Chief Priests. And Aslan, Jesus. Edmund betraying Aslan for turkish delights, mirroring to Judas betraying Jesus for 30 silver coins. Aslan dying, in exchange to save Edmund, Jesus dying to save us.

What hit me is not because of the similarities with the movie, but rather how serious sin is to God. In order for God to forgive sin, sacrifice must be made. Blood shed, life taken. Jesus died for us, so that our sins can be forgiven.

God hates sin so much, that there must be a sacrifice. How much God hates sin, makes me tremble. First time I really understand what it means to tremble at God's word. I realize that believing in Jesus is 1 thing, but in the whether, being saved or not is another. We can claim that we believe, but our lives have to prove it. Repentance must start now, it can't be delayed. Jesus might just come back the next day, minute or second. We can never be perfect, so while we struggle to overcome sin, may we all continue to persevere and not give up.

Now realizing the importance of of repentance is 1 thing. Knowing what God really means is another. We can't really be transform if we do not know God's word and what He means. Its only thru constant reading and praying that we can know God more and His will for us.

In the end of age, God will come and separate the sheep and the goats. I really do not want to be the goats. Many people claim to be Christians, while the way they live is in total contradiction. But it is not for me to judge, save or not save, its ultimately God who decides.

Its really by God's grace that I can have the opportunity to read and learn God's words. Its thru His grace and mercy that I am passed over from the destroyer. At times, while serving in church, people may feel different from others. By coming to church regularly, they may feel that they are better than others who do not attend to regularly. But we must be reminded that its thru His grace and our faith that we are saved. By faith not by works.

Sometimes we may feel that this person is way too bad to share the gospel with. He is hopeless, so sinful. But knowing that we are saved by His grace not anything that we've done, the more we should share the gospel to them.

In the book of Matthew, I see how God's master plan is being fulfilled reminds me of God's sovereignty. That no matter what happen, I got to continue to trust in God. If its God's will, anything can happen.

What's wrong with me?

Got to work today, even though it's a Sunday. Went to the Active Aging Carnival opposite ParkMall. The weather was sooooo hot, was perspiring crazily. Met several interesting people at the carnival. First was a group of people. When people came to our booth, our of their first words are, "Huh? Rediffusion still alive?" Haha.. Of course we are alive! Just that the subscriber rate dived quite drastically. There were also some loyal listeners who came down to support the DJs. They brought us drinks and food and kept us accompanied by chatting with us.

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Poor poor Jenn Yang. Out of no where, he got himself a new nickname. Before singspiration, on Saturday. I was looking at the songs that Christine has prepared. The projection was like this, "All: This is our king", but I saw it as Ali this is our king. Don't know how Dom can anyhow link that Jenn Yang is Ali. Jenn Yang is known as sheep, so baa baa black sheep. Then Ali Ba Ba. So Jenn Yang got his 5th nickname from us. First was jenny, then sheep, than shawn, then lost, now Ali. Haha..

During bible studies, Wai asked where is Melanie and Marilyn. So I told him that they have some family retreat. I tried to be funny, and added that they went to "Ho" Chi Minh City. Then Ali added that they went there for "Ho"liday. Usually holiday is pronounce is hor-li-day, but he said it as ho-li-day. Another stupid thing that happened was when I was tasked to read the bible. I am very sure that I read "how did you enter the hall without wedding clothes" but some others who can't hear say that I read "how did you enter the hall without wearing clothes". Worst thing is that they keep disturbing me about it. Haiz.. Wad a way to show their love for me... haha..

After bible studies went to Tampines Safra to play soccer with some brothers from Hosanna Baptist Church. Due to the tiredness from the morning game, I end up playing with the kids. Who knows playing with the kids is even more tiring. Cos they are much slower than me and Wai, was tempted to use our speed as adult to bully them. In the end both of us ran even more than we've expected. It was fun playing with the kids. They reminded me of my kids from the care centre.. Sob sob : .. ( I miss them so much...

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I haven't been myself lately.. Haven't seen her for a week. I so want to talk to her, but whenever I see her, I'll build a barrier before myself.. Saw her online, want to chat, but just dun know what to say.. What's wrong with me?!

Yuck!!

What is the point of being first in everything? First biggest plane, first night street race, etc? When the citizens themselves are not number 1? Encountered 3 disgusting side of Singaporean in this week.

First 2 was at the train station. I was in the train when I saw a lady trying to rush into the train. Door alert was already beeping, but she definitely can make it into the train. Suddenly from behind came a man... A MAN!! rushing from behind and push the lady aside. In the end the man went into the train but the lady did not.

Next encounter at the train station is when the door opens. Passengers in the train want to alight and passengers outside the train want to board. Few years ago, passenger boarding will still let some of the passenger alight before boarding. But now, not sometimes, but most of the time, people boarding never let those who wants to alight get out first. All will rush in once the door open and people will clash with each other. What has happened to Singapore?

Just now when walking home.. From far I can see smoke coming out of a rubbish bin near the playground and also smell of burning plastic. When walking nearer, I can see flame in the rubbish bin. The top part of the bin is melting. Some idiots must have set the bin on fire. 2 malays was sitting somewhere in the playground. The play ground might have blocked their view. But the smoke and smell is so obvious, there's no way they can tell that something is burning and it is plastic. They can just sit down there and chit chat and laugh to each other. They are not bothered about the burning bin at all? Thank God I have some water left in my bottle.. Just sufficient for me to put off the fire.

Seriously, Singaporeans are just so selfish, inconsiderate, and all the negative things. Not giving sits to elders and pregnant women, isn't this bad enough? What has this world changed us into? We only care about ourselves. Its all me, me, me. I, I, I. Haiz :(

Time to move on..

Time really flies, Christmas is around the corner again. 2007 will be over soon. Many things had happened in this month. First was my surprise birthday celebrations that my FOMers had planned for me. First time in my life was I ever blind-folded and so embarrassed. 2 things that I've learned, never talk nonsense when you are blind-folded and never assume. Like how people say, assume make the "ass" of out "u" and "me", that's what assume stands for.

Next was my first time, all by myself service leading in church. Was rather nervous due to the miscommunication with the musicians during the last leading. Thankful that everything went quite well but I still need to control my speaking speed and also my shivering.

Next was the church camp recce that most of the camp comm have been looking forward to. Drove up to Sofitel with 3 cars. Really thank God that we came back safely and the recce was a fruitful and enjoyable one. Next thing to look forward to it the church camp coming December.


Next big thing that happened was my decision to leave the student care centre and take up Uncle Kwok Seng's job offer. Parting is never easy, during my last day at the centre, many of the kids asked me why am I leaving and asked me not to go. Thinking of the many kids who are so dear to me, and those kids who have family problem just make me heartache. I teared when I was sending the kids to school. I know the problems are there, but there is nothing much I can do. Finally, time to move on from the centre, worked there for about 5 months. Took up Kwok Seng's offer at Rediffusion, was given a post as Operations Executive. Haha.. First perm job, pray that things will go well and that I'm able to learn and gain as much experience as possible.

Next big thing is that the BIG EATING MACHINE (Amos) is gonna leave us to go back to Canada. Another parting.. Haiz.. My friendship with Amos is a rather interesting one. Knew him from church when he came back to serve his National Service. Was feeling bored one night, so out of nothing I called him and asked if he has a bike and fishing rod. We went fishing together and from that they onwards, we are best of pals. Though in the middle of this friendship, there was some misunderstanding and fights. I'm glad that things are now quite well. Coming end of 07, there will be more parting to come. Haiz.. Will surely miss all of them.

Stayed over at Wai's place yesterday. It all happen when we meet up to playing soccer near his place. We played 2 on 2 soccer. Was so shag but shiok. Haven't been playing for 2 weeks. Maria cooked pasta for us. Haha.. Lucky this time there is no raw carrots or tomatoes. After dinner we send Didi Elliot for his chinese class. He looked so cute with the other kids and his teacher. While waiting for him to finish class, we went to have tea and chit chatted. When its time for us to leave, suddenly we just decided why not rent movie and stay over and watch. That's just the beginning of the crazy night. We played this game called Blokus. Quite a fun and interesting game. haha but not gonna explain how it is played. Had so much fun and laughter, laughing at Amos. Haha.. How he claimed to be Tai Dee king when he keeps shuffling the cards. Had so much fun playing with Elliot and Sharona too. Elliot is getting more mischievous, but he is still so adorable. Sharona is growing bigger and prettier. Really enjoyed our fellowship.

Elliot hiding underneath the table


Beauty Sharona

Kids are just kids.. Though they are naughty at times, they have their cute and innocent side as well. Though they often give my headaches, they also give me many reasons to just smile at them and touch their heads. There is a new boy in the centre, Brenden is his name. He is 5 yrs old this year, K1 now. He is so cute.. so innocent, loves to talk, talk a lot.. Was task to shower him yesterday. It was my first time showering a kid, was pretty worried in the beginning but its quite fun to shower him and I think I was pretty good at it. Still trying my best to handle the kids in the best way which will not discourage them but motivate them. Trying my best not to lose my temper at them, not to shout at them. I know its not easy, but I'll keep trying..

4 heavenly headache kings


New Boy in Town


My Angels

Tired...

The 'sian-ness' is back. I sigh almost wherever I go. I am in this stage of life, where I am hanging, neither here nor there. Almost 4 months have past, since I've completed national service. Its time for me to move on to the so called next stage of life. Its either to continue to study or work. If I am to pursue a degree, I have no idea at all what to study. I just don't know what my interest is!! What is wrong with me!!! Finally, temping at a before after school care center, found some interest in teaching. Tried applying for NIE, got rejected the first time. Tried a second, but still no reply after 1 month. Waiting is just so tiring.. such a turmoil.. Especially when there is so certainty to the thing you are waiting for.. I am so tired of waking, eating, sleeping.. So tired of trying to be right with God but keeping failing over and over again. I am not doing what God wants me to.. Am I one of those kingdom subject to be thrown out? God help me..

I Love U because....

So why do you love me? Erm.. I love you because..... When being ask for the reasons why one loves another, people can come out with 101 reasons.. Because you are pretty, smart, caring, friendly.. bla bla bla.. But what it the meaning of true love? Christian view of love? Yes, there are reasons behind why we love someone, but what if he or she changes? Will your love remain unchange? We should love like how Christ laid down his life for the church.. Though the church are full of sinners, people who are enemies of God, Christ still loves the church.. So that is how our love should be too.. True love is not just about loving a person, but to love an imperfect person perfectly..

Rejection

I think given a choice, nobody will wanna face rejection. Was just too bored at home and thinking about rejection. There are many kinds of rejection, be it in a relationship, while looking for job and bla bla bla.. Was just asking myself, now as a Christian, what will happen to me if I face rejection in the future.. Be it what kind of rejection, it will never be easy to face it.. I know that in the end I will still have God with me.. I shouldn't worry about all these.. But I am not Jesus, I am Richmond.. I will still need to go through the emotional warfare after the rejection.. But I am sure, in the end, I will still be back with God.. I am thankful that I have God to throw all my burdens and worries to.. It is a good way to share your problems if they are too personal to share with others. Just throw everything to God, He wants us to do so.. But we have to keep in mind, whatever happens, we must live worthy life cos everything is in God's hand. When God closes a door, He will definitely open another door for you.. Think I have reach a point when there's nothing much I can do, be it my career or anything other things. So I'll just commit everything into God's hand, pray according to His will.. I know things are always easier said than done, but we have to keep challenging ourselves, not to give up.. And while waiting, I'll just continue to seek God's righteousness continue to grow and mature as a Christian.. Amen

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Life is like a monopoly game...

Life is like a monopoly game, in the end, everything goes back into the box. In a monopoly game, the main idea is to be rich, have lots of money, properties and houses and buildings. To beat the other opponents in terms of wealth. But have we ever thought, in the end, all the paper money and deeds, all of them will be kept back into the box. They are not real, not eternal.


This reminds us as Christians, in life, what do we seek, things that are eternal or things are in heaven? We should seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness. What we really really need, are already kept in us for heaven. Isn't it comforting that God has promised to take care of our future. That in the, we will be in paradise with Him. No more pain, no more sufferings. Everything will be perfect.

There are many analogies about Christian life. But I personally like this one; Christian walk is like a train ride. The train is already moving, meaning Christ has already died for us, saving us. There is nothing else we can do, but to hang on to the handles that are in the train. While we head towards our final destination, the train will shake, refering to trials in life. We just have to keep hanging on, persevering in our Christian walk, keep trusting God, putting our faith and focus on the cross. Even if we fall into temptations, all we got to do, is to realize our mistakes and confess to God. He will definitely forgive our sins.

Hang on brothers and sisters..

PTBC 2007 - NUS

Applied for PTBC twice but only went for the conference once. Paid $100 for the first PTBC last year, but due to some last minute injury, couldn't really make it as its rather inconvenient. Today is first day of PTBC, everything thing is great. Only problem is that I feel a bit feverish and weak in the morning. Having sore throat too. Went to buy Strepsils, Panadol Strong and Hicee Vitamin C tablets. This year's speaker is Rev Mike Raiter. Funny Liverpool borned Australian. Principal of the Bible College of Victoria (Melbourne, Australia). Great speaker with great attendance. At least a 100 over brothers and sisters coming together to learn about Wealth and the Christian. Had a lot of fun learning and joking together. I even helped Andrew to be back up singer. So pai seh, got to stand on the stage to sing. Like my mini concert like that. Thankful that I didn't went out of tune. LOL

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After the last talk, we went to have some supper. So we went to a cafe called K Gourmet Cafe. Had a piece of one of my favourite carrot cake. Really taste very good. One of the best carrot cake I've tried. Food there are very affordable, student price, food taste not bad too..


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Went back and first thing is try to connect to the wireless. Had sooo much problem trying to connect. The signal strength is so weak. Took me quite sometime to find the correct spot to have "some" signal. Strength is always low.. Takes so long to load a full website. Worst thing is can't connect to msn. Haha.. While trying to connect, something funny happen. Ray and Benjamin was in my room. Then Ray spotted a cockroach in my toilet.

All of us are afraid of cockroach. Do not dare to catch so tried to kill. Haha.. Tried to smack it with my sandals but kind of difficult as the front part is curved up. So in the end, Ray used the shower to kill the cockroach. He turn on the water to the fullest. Not only to the fullest also to the hottest. Its really so hot that so much steam was formed. In the end the poor cockroach was cooked to death. Haha.. 3 big guys afraid of a small cockroach. That was the most funniest and enjoyable time here at PTBC at the moment. 1 and 1/2 more day to go. Hope to be able to learn more on how to handle our wealth..

I miss Didi Elliot!!

Thank God for the smooth delivery of baby Sharona. Wai and family have been in Australia for few weeks. Really missing them alot. Went to Queensway Shopping Centre the other day, reminded me of the day me, Elliot and Wai going there to buy shorts. How Elliot run about and hide behind the clothes. Miss going to their house and play with Elliot. Watching cartoon with him. Haiz.. Miss Maria's scolding during music practise, miss her raw vegetables during dinner, miss her butter corn too!! Miss meeting up with Wai, doing Colossians or going out to look for jerseys.

Was first rejected by NIE, so tot maybe I should go continue to study to get a degree. Thought for very long but still cant decided what my interest is. So tot why not just continue in IT line since I have a Diploma in Internet Computing. Almost registered with SIM to do a Bach in IT with Uni of Wollongong. But after working at the care centre, I really begin to love the kids there. Was teaching some primary 2 kids maths today. Kept reminding myself to be patient with them. Not to show a sign of impatience in my actions and tone of voice. Glad that I did quite well when I was teaching some kids who are a bit slow in understanding. So I guess I will try to apply for NIE again. Give it another try.

Loving my new phone so much. Cool look, good features. Though the camera is a bit slow and doesn't work very well at night, most importantly is that it is a slide phone and its not "very" expensive. Battery life works well too, not like how others comment it about being weak. Guess maybe cos I dun use the music player and camera often.

Life and priorities..

All people have priorities in life. Guess the main difference is whether you are a Christian or not. Non-Christians will tend to put it on studies, career and family. Underlying the non-Christian's world-view is usually a search for success, happiness and pleasure based on what the world-system values highly; money, success, power, prestige.

"Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world - the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does - comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever."
1 John 2:15-17

For Christians our goal should be to know God better every day through personal time with Him in the Word. This includes knowing one's spiritual gifts and determining the ministry God has called each one of us to. As responsible Christians we usually will need to get a job to support ourselves. If married, we have a responsibility to our families that is always high on the list of priorities. We can not serve God very well if we don't know what He is like and what He is doing in the world.

No matter what ministry are we in, the most immediate ministry that God has pre-destined us with is our family. There is no point being heavily involved in church and neglect your family. We can't have split personalities. Behaving a way in church and another when we are at home.

If a preacher has a wife, and his wife is seriously ill, its only right for him to stop preaching temporarily, and put full attention to take care of his wife till she recover. In a family, having a healthy prayer life is very important. It is essential for growth and for tuning in to what God is doing in the world. Prayer is God's way of drawing us closer to Him.

God only gave us 24 hours a day. 8 hours is spend for sleeping. We spend the rest of the 16 hours doing many things. We can't be doing everything. We have to know which areas in life to focus in. Studies and career should never come in the way of God and our family which includes church. Not enough time and too busy is just an excuse. If we find that we are too busy, then its time for us to forsake some areas in life. We can never juggle with too many things at a go. There is family, studies or work, ministry in church and God. If we try to juggle them all, the end result is that nothing will be done in the best way.

God never promised the ride wouldn't be bumpy, but He did promise that He'll sit right beside us the entire way. Things may not get better today or tomorrow, but slowly, little by little, God will make sense out of it all and set us back on the right path. The trick is to stay focused on the right priorities.

Be my guide, Oh Lord

<sup>In Philippians 4 : 6-7, God says,

6</sup>Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

There are many things in life I worry about. First was NS. Now that my NS stage is done with, studies and other worries in life all pile up. God told us not to be anxious, but present all my requests to Him. This is an area in life I really struggle in. Not putting enough trust in God.

Kind of decided to further my studies in SIM with Uni Of Wollongong. Really not sure what my interests are, so decided to continue the IT line, therefore doing a part time course in Bach in IT.
Many things to worry and clarify about. How come Grace is doing a full time course which takes her 4 years and my part time course is only 1 and 1/2 years? Isn't part time course suppose to be longer? Even though I have exemptions how can a part time course be 1 and 1/2 years? Next thing to worry is my farewell with FOM. I will need to leave FOM for a while, due to lessons on Sat noon. Will my farewell affect anything in future? What will happen to my relationship with them? The answer is to trust in Him..

Thank God for the temp job at the care centre. Things are going well so far. I love the kids and the kids love me. Though some of them are quite mischevious and rebellious, they still listen to you when you are firm yet nice to them. Some needs more attention, need the extra push to do their work, if not they will take hours to finish a simple assignment. Some just wants your attention to be on them, keep asking you questions. Some are just so cute and funny, which makes you simply love them. God help me to be a good example in this job, be it to the kids or colleagues.

Wai has left for Perth. Spent the whole night with him before he left. Had supper at a prata place together with Amos and Benjamin. Didnt sleep much, was busy packing his luggage and talking to him. He has been a very close brother to me, who I tell all my troubles and joys to. Who calls me in the middle of the night to talk to me when I needed someone. I miss Elliot, I miss Maria, and I am starting to miss Wai.. Cant believe I am starting to tear again when I think of them. Little Elliot whom I play with whenever I am over at their place. The fun times seeing how cute he is. His crazy ideas and funny moments. All the sharing and good food provided. The raw tomatoes and cucumbers. Haha.. I will be looking forward to the day they come back for good...

Pink is COOL!

I never like the color pink. Never will I wear a pink top or anything pink. Everything except this. This pink plastic which I lost it 2 years ago. Sooo happy to have it back. My pink IC is finally in my wallet again. Know its really bad to boast around, but can't help it but to take my IC to show off to all those who just got enlisted.

Finally met up with some of my sec sch friends. Me, Vishnu, Bai Kai and Yong Yong. Met up to play ps2, had supper then went to play pool at parkway. Long long time since we met. Yong is going to Aussie soon, to further studies. So have to spend more time together before he flies.

Got shocked on my way back. In the middle of the night, at about 2am. I saw a indian guy roller bladding under the void deck. Why will anyone roller blade at this time. Some weird guy.

Still trying to get use to the "dun have to wake up early" and "can sleep late and wake up late" mindset. Has been a while since I can do whatever and whenever I want.

Flying to Shanghai this Friday. Really looking foward to this break after 2 years of national service. Will not be able to attend FOM and church this week. Gonna miss all of them...

ORD LOH!!!!

Time Not Enough..

I have no time, too many things in life. Too tired after a long day in school. These are reasons I have been hearing from people. God gave us 24 hours a day. We spend about 8 hours sleeping, which is about a third of a day. We spend the other two third of our day, bathing, eating, go to school, go to work... Doing things we have to do and things we enjoy doing. Things we have to do includes work, school, eat.. Things we enjoy doing are like our leisures, reading, sports, games..
The problem is, do we include reading the bible and talking to God in our "have to do" and "enjoy doing" part of our life. If has to be in the "have to do" part, even though we do not include in into the "enjoy doing" part. Reading and praying are commands given by God. We have time to watch our favourite TV series, to play our favourite game, read books, comics and play our favourite sports. Why don't we have time to read about God and talk to Him? To me, its all about priortizing. Who do we put before us. God or ourselves? I myself have the same problem, and I am now going to make an effort to read and talk to God before I sleep, no matter how tired I am.. Having accepting Jesus as Lord, our lifes are controlled by Him. Therefore there is a need for us to know more about Him and talk to Him.. I pray for all Christians, to have the desire and discipline to read God's words. To put God before everything..

8 more days to ORD!!

8 more working days to ORD.. Finally, going to finish 2 years of imprisonment. Went to Wai's place for dinner and bible reading today. Continued with Colossians. Was reminded that Jesus is all that I need for my salvation. There's no need to add in other things. Adding in extra things means subtracting from what Jesus has already done. We should rely fully on Jesus for our slavation. Continue in the faith, stable and steadfast, not shifting from the hope of the gospel we already have.

Had fun playing with Elliot again. And as usual, more funny and cute things from Elliot. After studying the book of Colossians, while praying, he kept insisting of praying for his friends in Singapore and Australia. Played soccer with him under the void deck while Maria prepares dinner. Me and Wai kept warning him that if he wants to play soccer, he musn't use his hands, if not we won't pass the ball to him. Haha.. So the way he stops the ball is trying to stop the ball by positioning the ball between his feet.

Maria prepared steak, with raw tomatoes, carrot, lettuce and potato salad for dinner. Haha, another episode of fear factor for me. Raw tomatoes and carrot. Ate up everything after all. Raw tomatoes doesn't taste that bad after all. After dinner, he told me, " Kor Kor Richman, its time for you to go back". Then I say ok bye.. Then he immediately asked me not to go yet, says that I have to bathe here, sleep here and play with him again the next day. haha.. The funniest thing was half way playing, he went to his four and start to give his constipated look again. This time he seems to be using a lot of force. Haha.. He did his poo poo in his diaper. That look is just sooo funny. Too bad I lost my camera phone, if not I can record that face of his. Haha..

After he got washed up, continued to play with him. Playing cooking and hide and seek. I purposely hide in the dark room that he can't find me. After a while he began to sound like crying. So I show myself and he ran to me and hug me, asking me not to leave him alone again. Haha.. He even say he love me.. Hahahahaha.. After playing, Wai prepared milk for him and after drinking, helped him brush teeth then he went to bed and I headed home.

6 more days to Athens..

13 more working days....

13 more working days to go. Times are passing very slowly in office, due to not doing much work and slacking. Throwing all my work to my understudy. No one can say that I am mean to him, if I don't let him do everything, how will he learn, right? I still have to vet through his work to check for mistakes and guide him along. So not totally doing nothing.

Went to Wai's place after work. Dom and Yang was there too. Wai cooked us pasta as Maria is still recovering from the fall and she is pretty tired. Played with little Elliot while they do the cooking. Elliot is sooo cute. Haha.. Tried to confuse him while playing with him. Asked him, "Elliot, what sound do lion make?" Without hesitation, he roared. Then I asked again,"How about tiger?" He stood there, pondered while scratching his head, then he roared as well. Asked him what sound does fish make, then he made the f sound. Watched with him "Thomas the Train" on computer, kept insisting to sit on my lap. After dinner, he rudely snatched his little guitar from my hands, but looking at him playing the guitar with a funny but cute constipated face made me laughed. Was rather shocked and surprise and dinner when I went to the toilet for a leak. Was shock to see 6 ping pong balls in the toilet bowl. Immediately went out to ask Maria bout the balls, in case its Elliot who threw them in. The balls were used to train Elliot to use the toilet bowl to pee. They are there for him to shoot at. Haha.. But dun think that it worked on him.

Am thankful that I manage to sell away my ps2 slim. Posted my ad on SAF forum and found a buyer. Meeting him this weekend to pass him the console. Am so called using the money to pay for my mission trip and also my long waited Nokia E65. Haha..

15 more days to Athen..

To wait or not to wait....

Pastor mention before during sermons, reasons why people wait and why people don't like to wait.

Why people wait? People wait because they are waiting for an important moment, the thing they are waiting for is what they want, they have no choice, its not up to them to decide to wait or not to.

Why people dun like to wait? Because the outcome might not be what they want, they just do not have the patience to wait, what they are waiting for is not what they desire.

For me, in life, there are a few important moments that I am waiting for. The main waiting is the coming back of my Lord and Savior Jesus, to bring me back to Heaven, to put an end to all my sufferings and sins.

Am also waiting for my national service to be over, to take a step into another stage of life. Most probably gonna work, can't see myself going back to school to study.

Also waiting for "her" to be ready. I know that she is not ready yet, I can't be selfish and just think of myself. Anything now will just not work, I have to wait for her to have the same thinking as me, looking to the future of having a life partner. It's not easy, as I am always tempted to confess. The feeling of waiting is just unbearable, feel like i'm going to blow. But she is an important person to me, so I will wait.

The shortest waiting is for 23 May to come. My Liverpool FC will face AC Milan. A repeat of 2005 Champions League Finals at Istanbul. This year it will be at Athens. With AC all out for revenge, really can't wait for kick off. Everything will be decided in a night. Hope there everything can be settled within normal time. COME ON MIGHTY REDS!

Lord, help me understand that no matter Liverpool wins or lose, no matter if she is meant for me or not, that I will still rejoice in what has been on the cross for me, the death of your Son that brought me life. Just pray that if everything is to your will, that things will work out. Provide me with patience, wisdom and self control.. Amen

WE ARE HEADING TO ATHENS!!!

What a night of exciting and classic soccer. LIVERPOOL ARE IN THE FINALS!! WE ARE HEADING TO ATHENS!! Hate those nail biting moments, penalty kicks. Bring it on Man U or Milan!! Walk on! Walk on! With hope, in your arms! And You'll Never Walk Alone!! You'll Never Walk Alone!! The game tonight was like the finals in 2005, where we beat Milan on penalties, as it was raining cats and dogs. Its exactly the same atmosphere, heavy rains plus thrilling moments. Come on Liverpool!! Show the world are we are made of...

As the Red goes marching on..

Tonight is the night. The night I've been looking forward for a long time. Its the 2nd league of the semi final of the Champions League. Chelsea bringing over a 1-0 lead from the first league. Liverpool must win Chelsea, no matter wad.. 4 more hours to kick off.. It will surely be hell of a match..

Today is Labour Day. Went to Sentosa with some of the youths. We played beach volley ball, frisbee and soccer. I even played cricket with 2 new made friends, one a South African and another a New Zealander. Stayed over at DOM's place last night. Tot can play x box and watch soccer with Dom and Yang, but yang flew our kite again. haha.. Woke up early morning at 7 to prepare sandwich for them. Make tune, egg mayo and egg mayo with crab sticks. All had fun a everything was good.. Went to Wai's place after tat, bathe there and the rest watched VCD while I fell asleep and snored on the sofa.

19 more days in the office. The day of ORD is getting nearer and nearer. I can smell my pink IC coming back to me. HAHA.. 2 years of National Service will come to an end soon. Can't wait for 1st June to come. Come to think of it, its really troublesome to ORD. Got to do some stupid online quiz to make sure that NSmen knows everything about reservist, so that we cant give any excuse of not knowing the system. Still got to do so many medical checkups and blood test, to ensure that we do not have HIV and not tortured in camp. Also need to do clearance, go around to collect signatures. 101 things to do.. haiz..

Have been a year plus since I have some feeling for her. Been having some difficult times, facing temptations to confess. I know I shouldn't as she is not ready and everything will just go so wrong. Been trying to get to know her better and talk to her more, but sometimes things just doesn't go the way I want it. Been trying to be very patient and tyring to handle it with Christ in the picture. Been praying for it. Pray for more self control and personal growth spiritually.

ORD LOH!!!

Yeah!! 1 1/2 more month to ORD!! So excited, and looking foward to the plans in June. Time passes so fast, 2 years of NS is finishing soon. People ORD, I also ORD. People are slacking, doing nothing, walking around talking, but me? Busy working like a bull, busy clearing and handing over work to other departments. Feeling so unfair, but what to do? Haiz..

Went to Fish & Co for dinner with my boss on Tuesday. Its some form of ORD treat. Was flipping the menu and saw a new item, Whole Line Fish. Was rather curious so I asked the waitress. She told me that it's sea bass, and I "assumed" that it's sea bass fillet or something. To my surprise, when the dish was serve, its a whole piece of sea bass, deep fried on my serving dish, with its mouth open facing me. Was thinking how am I going to eat it. But manage to finish most of the meat though. Ordered a hot fudge brownie after the meal, tasted not bad as the hot brownie goes with the ice cream.

ATHENS HERE WE COME!!

What a night of Champions League Football. A match that is worth for me to sleep early and wake up at 2am to watch. Final score PSV 0 - Liverpool 3 (Gerrard 27, Riise 49, Crouch 63) Stevie G with a hard opening header, a left footed cracker from Riise, followed by a high climbing header from Robot Crouch. 3 goals sealed the first league and wad a massive scoreline to bring back to Anfield. We are a foot and a half into the semis, so so close to Athens but yet so so far. Bring it on Chelsea or Valencia. The Mighty Reds are marching on!!


Did a silly thing in camp last Thursday and was given 2 extras. Sebastian was missing, so out of mischief and tot of bringing some laughter to the office. Created a missing email, with his photo in it and send it to some of the clerks. Was found out by the WO Ic of PD Section. Why is she so free to catch people from other sections, while her own clerks are busy sleeping or doing nothing, talking around. Had some revengeful thoughts when i was punished with 2 extras, as i don't think the matter is so serious till i must get 2 extras. Was already reprimanded by my mdm. Well, as everything is worth it, brought laughters to the other NSF. LOL.. Must learnt to forgive and forget, as God has freely forgiven all my sins as well. Anyway, have learnt to take it as a grown up.

Mountain of worries..

Worries after worries. Before 1 can be solve another comes. So many things to worry about in life. Been reminding myself not to worry too much bout the future, what to work as, who will be my the other half. But just can't help but to worry. Just have to keep praying in this area as the bible has stated clearly bout not to worry bout all these earthly things.

" So do not worry, saying," What shall we eat?" or "What shall we drink?" or "What shall we wear?" For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." NIV Matthew 6:31-34

ORD LOH!!! Finally! ORDing on 1st June. Less than 2 months to ORD. Time really flies, 2 years of national service is finishing soon. Next step is to enjoy myself than find work. Already planned my June, couple of events coming up. From 8 to 13, I will be in Shanghi. 14 to 16 there will be youth retreat. Still deciding whether I will be fit for the mission trip, starting either 17 or 18, for 1 week.

Really exicted for the upcoming Nite Cycling. Did alot of preparation for it, so pray that everything will be turn up well. All will be able to complete the journey and enjoy themselves. Most importantly for the non believers to have a chance to hear God's words.

PSV VS Liverpool tmr morning. So looking foward to it, guess I will probably stay awake to catch it. GO MIGHTY REDS!!!

Prayer, the ultimate weapon

Prayer, its a very powerful weapon God has given to us. Its a privilege that God has given us, its the way to talk to God. Through prayer, we call on the name of our Lord, cry out our problems and sorrows. Through prayer, we also confess our sins to God and ask for forgiveness. And He who is faithful and just will forgive our sins. Through prayer, we give thanks to God, for His blessings and promises. As all this come to us freely and undeservingly, the immediate and ongoing response for Christian is thanksgiving. Through prayer, we also grow and persevere. In prayer, we can pray for each other, for wisdom in the spirit, to know God better. To have the eyes of our heart open, to see the Hope we have in Christ. All these are to help us persevere in our Christian walk. As life in this world are full of setbacks and temptations. By having wisdom to know God more and having our hearts open to see the Hope in Christ, we can be reminded of who God is, and what He has done for us. Indeed, God is a sovereign God, who has everything in control. He has sent his only Son to die for us, to redeem us, to save us and change us. Changing us to be like his Son, as we await patiently in this sinful world. Facing temptations and setbacks to pull us down. So as Christians and having this privilege to pray, urge fellow brothers and sisters in Christ to be prayerful. Pray for one another, to grow in Christ. Not to give up despite facing temptations and setbacks. Give thanks to God for everything, do not take him for granted. And also not forgetting to confess your sins to him and pray for forgivness. God is forever ready to forgive us. Amen

Confused, Confusion, Confusing

I am confused. Living everyday in confusion. Future is confusing. So many decisions to make for my future. Not really worrying, just confused on how to plan it. Work or study? Or do both together? If work, as what? If study, what and where? So many big decisions to make, don't feel like making them, but I know I have to, somehow. Just pray for guidance and wisdom on this area.
Lost my phone on Friday. Before setting off for the nite cycling recci, was happily smsing, till the state that I forget to zip my pouch when I set off. Think I dropped my phone somewhere near my place. Thank God for the book of James, that my view of worldly possession have changed. Wasn't really sad bout the lost. Had a super tiring recci.. First set off from home at 930hrs, cycled all the way to St Hilda's that realize my phone is missing. So got to trace back all the way back home to look for it. Can't find, then cycled all the way to Pasir Ris, fisher man village to meet dom, win, belle and daze. From there we set off to East Coast Park, via Tampines and Bedok. Rested at Mac then continued with the recci. From ECP went all the way to the extreme left. Original plan was to cycled to Changi Village, but drop that idea in the end, as it is really far and dangerous. So cycled all the way back to Pasir Ris, funny thing was I was cycling my own bike, not need to return as it was not rented, and I got to cycle pass my home to get to Pasir Ris. I could have just go home but I went back to Pasir Ris with the others. Had breakfast there, then cycled home. Was soooo super tired and painful. haha...

Learnt a new thing during bible study this week. Didnt know that when we don't pray, we are acutally sinning against God. All the while tot that if we don't pray just don't pray, nothing big about it. Pray that with this new knowing, there will be a change to my prayer life. To be more prayerful. More importantly is not to make it a daily routine to pray. Not planning a time table that I have to pray at 7am or 10pm daily, but more of a natural desire to want to pray to God, submitting all of life to Him.

Trusting and keep trusting

Have been doing alot of thinking lately. Questions about my future, what shall I do after I ord? Should I study or should I work? If study, what to study? If work, what to work? Is she meant for me? When should I confess? Should I leave or should I stay? Should I say yes or no? Many a times, our future just seems so blur and so far ahead, while time will just fly pass without making a noise. All we can do, is to trust God and keep trusting God. Trusting that He has been there before us, everything is the best for us. Do not question or blame got if we do not get what we want.

3 more months to ORD and this 3 months seems to be sooo long. Time seems to have slowed in the office. Weekday always seems sooo long and weekends sooo short. Been quite tired lately. Too many commitments in life. Have to sit down and plan carefully what to commit to and why to commit? Not to commit for the wrong reason. Things are going to get busier as easter and the youth chalet is coming up. Really looking forward to the holiday to Perth. Hope that it will really happen but not just a tot.

Went through the first bible study on prayer on Wednesday and found it very interesting. Prayer is a very powerful gift that we Christians have. But are we praying correctly? We tend to pray for things regarding our earthly issues. Pray for work, pray for school, pray for health. But have we really pray for our spiritual growth? Pray to be more mature in Christ. To show love to each other? We have to also keep in mind that as we pray to God as our friend, He is also the God who is going to judge us. Feel that we must have the desire to want to pray to God, not only when we need help, but also to give praises and thanks when things go well. Having a real desire to want to pray to God, rather than making it a routine to pray. Making it a want rather than a must.

Went to Wai's place for dinner on Tuesday. Maria cooked spaghetti for us, which came along with a bowl of salad. At first I tot it was just a bowl of green lettuce, to my surprise to find smoke salmon, raw carrots and cucumbers underneath. Haha, these are thing which I do not dare to eat. Its all raw and almost raw. The eeww feeling or the raw taste. But since Maria took to trouble to prepare, I just ate everything up with complaining. It wasn't that bad after all, being the first time eat smoke salmon, raw carrots and cucumbers. Haha, Di Di Elliot is soo cute. Keeping taking out his toys to show me. He even completed a jig saw puzzle of 100 by himself while Maria was sleeping. So amazing, he's only 3! Went to Queensway Shopping Center with Wai and Elliot after dinner. Had so much fun seeing Elliot doing and saying funny things. Bought myself a new pair of adidas shorts too.

HELP!! I NEED A BREAK!!

I am feeling tired, worn out and sick. I need a break. I need a holiday!! I will be going for one after no matter, no matter what's ahead on my schedule. Think will be flying to Perth, for 2 weeks at least. Need a break from Singapore, everything good n bad.. I just need a break. Will be a good time for me to do lots of thinking, reflection, planning.

Weekends are always so short, cos they are days spent with people I love most. But there are times when time seems so slow, when you are waiting for things you want to happen.. Dear God, what have you planned for me ahead? Only if I can take a peep at it.

Was sick since last Thursday, am down with flu, fever, cough, sore throat. Kept swallowing down panadol cold relief, cos i wanna get well to play soccer on Saturday. Dont wannt spread my germs to others around too. Finally get to see Wai and hear his voice live, not thru phone or sms. Was rather shock to talk to Elliot on Friday noon. Havent seen him for months, expecting him to forget bout my name. When the phone was passed to little Elliot, his first words are "Hello, Kor Kor Richman.. " Andrew must be sad, cos Elliot forgot his name. haha

Why are there so many people born in the month of January? I need both my hands and legs to count them. Quite frustrating, to see them celebrating bdae in the early period of the year. Cos I just celebrated mine not along ago, and now they are already 1 year older again. And I have to wait for another 10 months b4 mine comes again. lol.. stupid tots. I know its kinda late, but will like to wish happy belated birthday to: Vishnu, Kah, Irene, Fiz, Alicia, Melanie, En, Xian, Win, Char, Dace, Wai, Maria and ELLIOT!! Sorry for those I've left out, I am sick, hope you will forgive me.. haha

Had quite a fun Sunday afternoon. When to eat and shop at hougang point. Went to the NTUC there to shop with Aunt Jane, and while she does her shopping. Me pix edwin and justin took these photos..


This week, we are taught not to show favourtism and judge others. Not an easy thing to do, cos every little thing we say or think, we are already judging people. Must learn to treat each other fairly, not to be nice only to the people you like or are close with. Who we sit with in church and already reflect us showing favourtism. We tend to sit with people we always talk with, and neglect the more quiet ones and new comers. No matter what, we should never give up trying as God did not give up on us.. Strive on brothers and sisters..

*4 more months to ORD!!

Trials & Temptations

What a rainy day it has been today. Rained the whole evening. Stupid rain spoilt our plans for soccer today. Cant wear the new shoe that I have bought.. Spent 60 bucks on it today. Looks and feels quite good, hope to be able to score more goals with it.


Since we can't play soccer, as it is raining, so we decide to go for some indoor games. Haha, in the end its bowling again. We have been bowling for the 4th time this time. Expensive game, so got to control a bit. After the upcoming FOM Bowling Tournament on 3rd Feb, we guys got to really cut down on bowling and play more soccer or any free games. Played quite well today, have not scored so high for a long time, so took a photo of it and not to offend the other bowlers, the
names are not shown.

Noticed something very funny about the socks they provide at the bowling alley. The brand of the sock is called "Darkie" and it has the logo of the old Darlie toothpaste, the black man with white teeth.


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Learnt many things at today's Bible Studies. Learnt that we should not just be hearers, but that we must also be doers of God's word. We should not just hear His words and do nothing about it, we must practise what we preach. But the main and new thing I have learnt, is the difference between Trials and Tempations.

Trials are from God, they are there to test our faith and we should find true joy from trials. Cos when we undergo different trials, it will test our faith and produces steadfastness. In time, we will be perfect and complete, not lacking of anything. We do not find true joy by winning a lucky draw, or scoring all A's in the exam, as all these are temporal. Its when we are perfect and brought back to heaven, that's where true joy is. Its not easy to understand and agree with it, may we continue to encourage one another and be steadfast under trials.

And what about temptations? They do not comes from God, as tempatations are there to pull us away from God. But temptations are not totally bad if we do overcome and become victorious over them. Therefore we should never give up when we face trials or temptations. We should persevere and always go back to the Bible and pray to God for guidance.

Thank You Boss

Really thankful to my officer, for tolerating and forgiving all my careless mistakes. He has never ask me to sign any extras before, despite always getting him into trouble and in the end need him to help me cover my mistakes. He's the most welfare officer and I am thankful to have him as my officer...

Up or down I go?

Though I am now a Christian, I do not think that I have been living a life and is so called worthy of God. In fact, everyday that I live, I have been sinning. As easy as a simple ungodly thought, I have already sin, so don't talk bout other sins that have to be physically commited. I know that we still have our old body with us, though we are given a new spirit, but I just keep commiting the same sin over and over again. Sometimes I just wonder, will I be save when the Lord comes? Knowing that Jesus had already died for me, sins have been forgiven, but I ain't living a life worthy to Him. I will still lose my inheritance if my life does not change. Think the first step to do is to have a consistent and solid quiet time with God daily. Thats the basic of basic that we must do. In order to know God better, thats the only way. But the problem now is, my quiet time is not consistent. Do for a few days, then stop for a few weeks. It seems that I only turn to God when I am in trouble, otherwise when I am doing fine, I will put God in a corner of my mind. This is not the right thing to do. All of us have to put God in the center of our life. Its not easy but if we continue to strive on, with the help of prayer and also encouragement from other. I believe that we all can reach that goal. I am sure I am not the only person facing this problem. So continue to hang on guys.. Share in each other prayers need. Tolerate one another, love one another. Love God by putting Him in the center of your life.

Why is time crawling now?

People always say that time flies, but why is time crawling now? The last 6months of my ns life seems to be so slow. Have to plan my leave and off properly, so that the last few months will seems shorter. But think of the procedures I have to go thru before ording makes me a bit sian, but do health check ups (ffi), get so many signatures from so many different people. What should I do after ord? Kind of sick of studying and parents not really finanial ready to send me to Uni. Go out to look for a job? What can i do? Problems that I have to face when my ord date gets nearer. Pray for God's guidance on my future, be it in my love life and also working life.

Had a tiring weekend this week. Played cpt's ball, soccer and basket on saturday, under the blazing afternoon sun. Had lots of fun though, playing games with the guys and girls of FOM. sob sob.. liverpool is out of FA Cup!!!! all thanks to arsenal!! haizz.. what can i say bout it? gonna face arsenal in a few more days again, this time in league cup. Hope that liverpool will win this time. If not it will be so humiliating to be kick out of 2 cups by same team.

Had a crazy and fun Sunday too.. We had a crazy $20.20 dim sum buffet at Dragon Gate Restaurant. We ordered so much that we got to force oursleves to finish it up. The food wasn't
really great too.


After the stomach bursting dim sum buffet, we went to play bowling at SAFRA Mount Faber. We divided ourself to hougang and non hougang. In hougang we have jenn yang, andrew and dominic. Non hougang we have justin, me and benjamin. We won the first set, but the Hougang got their form, and continue to win the next 2 sets. haha, had lots of fun. Expecially watching andrew bowl. Didnt know he can play quite well, as his funny liang po po post.


Really hope to have more outings with the youths, so to be able to know some of them better and also to grow and love each other in christ. Weekends just pass so quickly, its another 5 days of boring ns life. Cant wait for next sat..